Went to two social events this weekend. One was at the neighbors for a BBQ. That wasn’t so bad, not the first one. Hubby G was next to me and comfort of my house two doors down made it not difficult. I’m finding that I enjoy staying for about 1-2 hours then I’m ready to go home. I’m ok with that. I don’t feel like I’m missing anything.
last night I went alone to a get together at a new friends house. I was nervous. Not because of being tempted to drink but because I was going to a social event without the crutch of wine/ alcohol giving me the buzzed courage to talk to new people. This is huge. I did talk to my friend the host for a bit but she was busy hosting. Most the others knew each other quite well. I sat on the outside watching. A few people came and sat in my small circle. At times, I felt like I was stumbling over words joining the conversation. Totally new territory. But I actually told stories. Felt a bit “naked” and vulnerable.
I was pretty pleased with myself. I stayed two hours even though I was the first to leave. Told hubby how proud I was. It wasn’t a battle of whether or not to drink, it was confronting my fear of new social situations. Wow what a shift. Guess 150 days under my belt is good for something! 🙂